When you've gone places, when it's time for rejuvenation, you don't want to go nowhere else.. but home. Maybe it's the comfort of being able to free yourself from circumvention and denials.
We often put behind what we need for what we want. What is given to us is not our right to decide, so all the efforts will go to waste and we might get burnt out when things don't go the way we expected. Then you start to wonder, how the hell can I beat this monster in me so I can break the bubble to feel satisfied with what I have worked for.
When we reminisce we like to say "the good old days" but not every experience we had teach us forthright without going through pain more enormous than the wisdom we gain. With so much resentment we carry in our hearts, it is hard to see what we are good at and hard for us to be thankful for what we already have.
Yes we learn from painful experiences, but we hurt too much to heal, that even remembering back the moment destructs our confidence. It makes us afraid of future attempts. Every moment in the past teach us something, but which one is ameliorative to push us further in life? Maybe it's much better to forget everything and start over as if there was no beginning. You are no hero.
Self, please stop the resentment. (Ahh.. musim exam memang begini.)
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