It's about progress

I think keeping track of your goals and keeping lists is important. This one lecturer of mine like to give tips on becoming a good engineer in the future and 'writing things down' is one of the good habits.

If you've been a good friend of mine, NO I don't write nor keep a diary/journal/organizer. I keep plans/lists in the clouds of my mind so that I can get things done at a targeted time frame. If I have the time, then I'll put it somewhere in my schedule.. which will eventually be buried somewhere.

I think this is a problem because if I don't write, people get a bad impression that I'm not interested or I won't remember it. It stresses me sometimes to see other people eagerly writing down things in their notebooks, but it has always been my habit to be LAZY at it. It worries me sometimes. But I do 'write' things in my head okay! I don't have good memory capacity and nearly my memory becomes volatile once I'm interrupted by external distractions, but when I do want to remember, it gets stuck in my head like a loop function. In Sarawak Malay  a word that greatly defines this: "itok".

If it's important or interesting enough, I'll try my best to remember it. I just hate to take out a pen or a notebook just to write something... which will eventually get lost somewhere in the piles of junk at my desk. I always lost my pen that way too! That's why I don't like it. Anyway, it's really stressful to remember the stares of people who just have that bad impression of me. Boo.. go away go away!

It's suppose to be the 'spring break' but my brain will still be concentrated on academic things, like my FYP. I hate to remind myself that I'm 'working for' my SV, when the original deal was 'working with'. It only feels like the latter when there's communication and when I feel my SV is greatly helping me.. hehe. The only thing I'm hoping for is a good recommendation letter. Not the grades or a great outcome of my project. Que sera, sera! Hope I can do my best.