My four walls

I'm not really sure what I've got myself into these past weeks, but I think I'm starting to feel how boring it is to live at home. Nothing feels right anymore, everywhere I turn everything bores me even though it is something new to me.

When I heard about the acclaimed Malaysian child prodigy (math genius) going to appear on this variety show on TV, I anticipated to hear what he's going to say now he's older. But to my disappointment after 10 minutes the kid starts talking about this health product that are supposed to make your brain brighter and remember things easily. I stopped watching 30 seconds after that. What a disappointment to have a math genius endorsing pills that way, he sounded cheap when he's suppose to be smart. He was saying those pills are good for people who are going to do their public exams in school like the SPM, but the funny thing is that he hasn't gone through high school yet. Despite hearing and reading about his abilities as a child prodigy, I still think that with utter perseverance, consistence and determination; you can be whoever you want. Genius or not.

I've been staying in my old room to do most of my works. I feel magical when I'm in this little private space. I painted the walls and everything myself because I wanted to have a complete control over it because I called it MY room back then. Staying here reminds me of my younger days full of brevity. I think I was way creative then compared to now and I was better at organizing my thoughts. Now that I sit here many hours in front of my computer, my thoughts suddenly feel that they are in order and I can process them easily. I think when I'm in an open space or a big space my thoughts gets interrupted by waves coming from other objects.. so I become forgetful and clumsy at expressing things verbally. Maybe my thoughts are bouncy so they drift away so easily too.. in the end they got lost and I become lost also.. hehehe.

Actually I like having my own personal space, it gives me so much comfort to be myself and to become a 'genius' in my own world. I guess this is why a friend says I'm an independent person and good at being single. Hmm...