White Shirt

Waaah today I overreacted with something and I think it puts a bad impression towards some people I care. This morning I had a really bad tummy ache and it gloomed my whole day, which I don't even know why. For some reason I was in a bad mood. I guess my laughters today didn't sound as sincere as other days. Was I pretending to be happy or was I trying to show 'the other side' of me? I guess I really have quite a bad temper.. I accidentally cursed when I wrongly parked the car. 

I think some of my friends would know very well when I'm angry. Truthfully it's annoying when people do that,.. I don't want anyone to have an impression that I'm hurting their feelings. I don't like to hurt other people, as much as I don't want to be hurt myself. To those who felt like I was going to eat you up, I'm sorry~ I didn't mean it.. I was not thinking properly. Maybe I was tired.. ~_~

Today I wore a hideous white shirt. The last time I wore it I said I'm not going to wear it anymore, but I did today because I forgot about it. It boosts my esteem for the first one hour of wearing it but quickly got annoyed when the weather got hotter in the noon. From my past experience, nothing good ever happens when I wear it. Today I fell into its bad feng shui again. So I'm going to say it again, I'm not going to wear it anymore!! Haha. Pity the innocent shirt..

I have been asked whether I have a boyfriend or not many times. Is it a trend to have one? I don't like it when people ask me that because it puts a bit of pressure. I think it's more like I lack the confidence and the will to be in a relationship. I like to have freedom and I'm 'claustrophobic' and I'm really picky. People say, when you fall out of love, you lose a part of your confidence- I think it's true! Waahh.. what to do now.. 

I guess I better fix that first..