Good in the bad

I have finished all exams in whatever form they have a few days ago. My FYP oral presentations was surprisingly smooth and I couldn't be much calmer while I was in front of the three men evaluating me. It seemed that I have relayed the idea of my project successfully when they asked me some questions at the end. Even though so, they weren't as tough nor as technical as I thought it would turn out. I myself feel very satisfied with the presentation and I feel that it was the best that I have ever done.

The whole year has been great. I call it a year of 'Revelation' or a year of seeing things inside myself that I never believed in before. My teenagehood perhaps is nearing its end, but I hope I would continue to live with the same spirit  throughout adulthood and share the wisdoms that I've learned with younger people. I've discovered a lot about myself, the world and the difference today than I was before is that I now have a broader view of my choices in life. I can change things and if it is up to me, it is up to be.

Of course, there is no turning back and I believe dearly in that. I want to be able to make good decisions for myself, make more of it as I go on. I've learned to control my emotions and I've become contemplative by observing the things around me, why and how it happens. There is no use blaming others when God have given you the chance to do it yourself isn't it? The blend of the spiritual journey mixed with my worldly life made me see that there are opportunities everywhere for that U-turn.

I solely believe that God is the one who controls us, but we can always ask Him to let us see what we couldn't. All the bad things that happen, they eventually lead to something better. It's important to train our hearts to be thankful for the little things we have and not to forget where they actually come from. If we are able to see the good in the bad, we can change the worldly things we do to be more fulfilling and meaningful.

Other than that, getting in touch with the spirituality side of myself have entirely changed my outlook on what it means to live this life. Life is nothing but a big prank, some tangible form of a Divine joke that is full of laughters initially. Eventually we will lose the synergy and become sad or regretful when we realize that it can all end in just a blink of an eye. So what do we do about it? What does it all mean then?