Personal favouritism

Have you ever felt that you're really uncomfortable with the people you're with but keep denying it? 

I think when we were still babies it's easier to discriminate because all we can do is cry when we're uncomfortable with the person holding us. Crying was such a good facade, nobody can really tell what a baby wants unless you keep on troubleshooting them, you'd hardly know whether they like you or not. 

As our personality develop through age sometimes you're only comfortable with a certain kind of people depending on the situation that you're in. I hate that feeling of having to endure a bad feeling while having to dedicate yourself to a certain commitment with another human being. I hate to be a "slave" with someone I do not have much respect in. 

So as you grow up it's harder to be honest. You can't verbally tell that you're unhappy because most of the time it'll be hurtful for both parties. It's hard to even pull a fake smile when your heart is not in the right place. So what do you do? It's either you endure that bad feeling as long as you can or find a way to make yourself happy. But how? Hmm.. 'personal favouritism' can become problematic to our social lives but one of the ways to solve it is probably to understand ourselves foremost. That's hard.