I Got Feelings Too!

Macam ni lah. I'm a human. I have my own emotional response. I can get tired and frustrated, I can run out of energy, I can run out of time, I can choose to be upset, I can choose to keep quiet- I got feelings too!

When I can't speak out to you, I feel like both my hands are tied, like I don't have a voice in my own life path. When I don't hear anything from you, I feel like your hands are not reaching mine, like we're not in this together. We've got a long way to go, we've gone this far, why do I still feel like we are no match for each other? 

Why is it so difficult for us to break this invisible wall between us? Was it the time when I accused you to be wrong, did I go overboard with my ego? I'm tired of keeping my feelings inside, tired of pushing my needs aside, tired of asking more from you and not getting anything back.  

I wish you knew how badly I want to be a part of your life. I wish I can stop expecting great things with you because it's eating me up inside. Destroying me, destroying you.