Emotional Leakage

I met a classmate when I was jogging at the park by the lake last Sunday morning. He asked if I came there alone and all I did was pull on a nervous smile and nodded. I should have said something, but my mind keeps repeating "He's so cute and hot sweaty like that!" that I forgot how to speak. The sun was in my eyes.

Now that's what I call, emotional leakage. I don't usually care about the boys I go to school with, but lately I find myself thinking about him redundantly. He's the one who got my exchange gift when we were in 1st Year. I wasn't even sure who he was when they called out his name. 

He's not important. The point is, I can feel again- I can judge and evaluate what I like, what I want, what I find attractive, watch romantic movies and feel something etc etc. Does that mean I can say "I'm okay" and really mean it? Funny. 

Rasa macam nak nyanyi lagu Liyana Jasmay "Aku tak percaya cinta, aku tak percaya C-I-N-T-A hey hey HEY!". I swear the song sounds like one of Avril's, but it's not so bad.. one of those catchy songs you hear on the radio that pops in your head when you're having a teenager moment.