Self-Esteem To Match

Pahal jak aku rasa nak berblog indah tok owh.. jarang jak aku nak nulis entry everyday.

I don't feel like doing anything today. It's not like I'm that tired sampei sik pat nak bekerja but you know, the time when you feel like sleeping in and shut your eyes for another day. Last night before I dozed off I thought about my family at home. I started worrying about something.. Homesick kah pa? Ada lah di pikei ku ya. Sampey rasa nak nangis ada juak tapi sik pat keluar aek mata cuz my brain was too occupied on other things.

I was thinking about the project idea that I suggested during the meeting which the team leader forgot to jot down. Instead of 5 titles, he jot down 4 and the 4th idea is sort of a combination from my idea and another team mate's. I wanted to tell him, but I suddenly lack confidence to speak out. Sik tauk pahal kah aku malam tek pandey bisuk. Kak ya sampey ke pagi tok itok nak?

The team leader sounded like he strongly defend the title that he came up with but I don't think it's suitable because the SV won't be able to help much on it. It involves majorly on the skills I'm supposed to possess, but it's rather simple and uninteresting. But the team leader looked so enthusiastic about the idea, which he got from the internet. We'll just wait for the SV's judgement on the best title. I'm praying hard that my idea will get accepted though!

I'm surprised that the guy they sent for the exchange programme in the US has quite a bad English. It's not about the grammar or pronunciation, but the flow of words when he explains his idea. Bebek jak nya ncarik word pakei eksplen.. ada juak ku nyambong2 sikit heheh. He sounded really classy though, with the help of the American accent he has come to adopt. Sebut 'water' pun dah macam 'watrrr' (stressed R). But then accents don't guarantee what you're trying to tell is going to go across the communication line. That, I learned in PCS* class with Ms. Chong. Wah Ms. Chong if you're reading, hollaback! (as if nya maca blog aku lah)

I used to be so confident and outspoken in group discussions, but it seems like I'm back in my shell. Why oh why??

*PCS - Professional Communications Skills