The (Lost) Wedding Ring

Omagadddd my wedding is next month. I'm already freaking out and it's all I am thinking of lately.

To make a long story short, I actually lost my wedding ring at a waterfall park somewhere in June (I, think - can't remember, too long ago). To tell the story again takes a bolstering effort to not blame myself or think of the lost ring I dearly cherish.

At that time my fiance was at a fishing trip in Tasik Kenyir and there was no way I can contact him to convey my deepest regret on the matter. At the crime scene my friends and I looked for the ring under the waterfall bed for at least two hours before giving up. With my goggles on, I never thought my lungs could be so strong as to dive so much and at such a deep end that day. I came back home with a heavy heart and carried on, but inside, all hell broke loose.

Shared with a small audience from the office about it and my frustrations eased a little when they shared their own stories on lost wedding rings. I was torn between hiding the loss from my fiance or to be honest of my poor skill in keeping things safe. In the end, I did confessed to my fiance about it and admit to taking up the responsibility for the incident. The story goes along the lines of- I have lost it because I was struggling to keep afloat in the water after being pushed by a few friends. Was it really like that? Hmm.. hmm..

Thankfully- I praise Allah for this- my fiance took it calmly. For those two days that I could not be in touch with him, all I was thinking was that he'd be on a rage to the extend of putting our relationship on a dotting end. Of course, my imaginations can be a little too dramatic for such a cool boyfriend.

Although he was okay with it, he kept teasing me about my carelessness until today. Fine, I accept with all due regret- with a lifetime warranty.

We bought a new wedding ring today. To move on I must accept that I can never find a ring I desire as much as the previous one. I settled with a less protruding diamond.. just a flat stack of diamonds, but still eye-catching because of the 'wide' rows. Totally different in structure from the one I loved so much. Anyhow, no use to keep comparing.

Thing is, I loved it when I was at the jeweler's but when I come home there's a tinge of regret for not choosing a simple one-diamond ring which was the lost ring's design...
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....I must move on, I must move on, I must move on.