Waddahell!

It's only my 3rd day of work and there's all sorts of things in my head. I heard my friends are having fun in their respective workplaces, but as of today my workplace sucks because I'm still reading manuals. Blergh.. dah muak! My SV was really busy today so I do nothing but sit and read.

Yesterday my SV bought me lunch at McD. I talked and opened up so much with her, I almost can't believe I did so. She's quite the talkative kind and she makes it so comfortable to communicate with, so apa lah gik aku. Well, I got another 7 months with so I better have a good relationship with her. 

While I was abandoned reading those new things at the office these 3 days, I started to think of negative things about my life. I was thinking.. what the hell have I got myself into? What am I'm doing? Kenak lah idup ku cam tok. Would my life be better if I've chosen a different path? Would it be more fun to do my internship elsewhere? What if? Why not? Blablabla. 

Oh to think of my forgotten dreams. FUCK. I don't even know what I want in life anyway, so what's happening in my life right now memang suits me right. I want to stop blaming myself and putting all the blame to fate. Waddahell!