Something To Be Thankful For

I mistakenly read some old writings and it kind of pissed me off last night. I was actually feeling sorry for myself in that writing because it sounded so sad. But of course, hari ini hari baru, so the past is done and all zipped.

But I also found a piece that says "Mesti best if I get to study dekat U**".. written three years ago when I was fighting for the scholarship. I wrote that after the 3-days camp the sponsoring company held for its prospective scholars. I didn't know I was that hopeful. After a few weeks I got the letter, I got the scholarship. I got the fucking scholarship! I was blurry, but my mom was ecstatic.

Am I really meant to be here or what? Hahaha. Memang patut lah aku lekat disini and not elsewhere. Masin juga mulut aku. When I look back, it always make me smile, the luck, the destiny, the path that Somebody Up There had crafted for me. It's like magic. I didn't do anything extraordinary, I didn't think I was that extraordinary, to be picked from hundreds of people. Gosh.. the memory of my glory days make me feel invincible sometimes.

I still think I'm just lucky. Even though I've never had a schoolbreak for more than 2 months, it's still a wonderful experience afterall, for being in a university so young and having to grow up within such drastic changes. People pay my studies in advance and I get paid for studying, and this is a private university and I'm doing an extra-ordinary degree programme yang agak challenging! Haha. Padan muka aku. It's something to be thankful for! But I've got miles to go, I've got challenges to deal with. I wonder if the same luck is still here. Hopefully.

Okay, a little extra jiggly today. I need to study for Electromagnetics Theory. Last paper damn it, last fucking exam paper before 2nd year officially ends! Woohoo. Dah tiga tahun disini.